Back At It
I'm pretty sure that I used to be pretty good at not doomscrolling. Lately, it's like I don't even try. When did I stop caring? I feel lame that I'm writing about this again. It's overdone. I think to myself, why I am I still talking about this? ...And I think that's why I gave up. Because I felt like it was more embarrassing to try again and still be talking about it than to stop trying at all. I don't know what's so appealing about it. I know that I'm looking for something new and engaging that will make me feel happy instantly. But it's not guaranteed in the videos that come up, so what I'm really doing is spending a lot of time searching and eventually I take too long and I don't like that I'm not settled yet. I know that most of the time I would prefer to be invested in a story, then after an hour instead of still feeling displaced and unproductive, I've read a decent chunk of book or finished an episode of TV and finish...