LET'S GO WIPS, LET'S GO!

I catch myself learning the same lessons every day. Each time it's like a revelation but I never remember any for next time. If I can't do it all, I'll just write this down, PHONE IS NEVER BETTER. 

Here's my update: I've been doing good. Less time scrolling, but I do still falter. I've had moderate success in getting myself off my crutch app over to my TV app and I started feeling more settled (as predicted) but instead of working to maintain this, I decided to aim higher. I recently tried to stop myself watching TV in English because I'm trying to learn another language. I wasn't ready for that hurdle though. Once I took away habit shows and comfort TV, I didn't jump into new shows in a language I don't fully understand yet, because it was too hard too soon so I ditched the progress and forgot to stop scrolling. 

That's something for me to work on and remind myself about, no big jumps. Keep making it easy to stop scrolling and until that's not a fight anymore it doesn't need to be harder. It's better to be not-scrolling than anything else. Always. 

I think there's no rest. At least in my experience so far, this is not a habit that once formed remains unbroken, it doesn't get easier. I'm trying like new every time to remember it all like the second time. Phone is mindless. I don't use my mind when I mindlessly pick it up then forget why I needed to then I think it's not that bad and I don't care. Then it's never easier and I start again. 

Short form content always takes ages to leave. I think I lose when the phone glare locks eyes with me so we're both stuck in a trance and I can't peel my eyes away and that's why my eye is off the ball and every time I forget I shouldn't be here. 

My hope is that one day, leaving won't be cold. I have these moments of clarity when I realise I've done it again and I abruptly shut my phone off and turn away, but the absence left behind is immediately harsh and I turn back until I have another moment of clarity maybe an hour later and the cycle repeats. 

This blog lets me discover these things as I write. I love writing. I didn't expect to like it this much but what makes me most happy is that I never like to write this on my phone. I always type it on a keyboard and that makes me feel very grounded and free. 

Today I want to write a list of all my Work In Progresses (WIPs) and stick it to my wall like a poster (along with that PHONE IS NEVER BETTER poster) because one of my biggest downfalls is that I very often forget I could do something I love and find myself bored because once it's out of sight it's out of my mind gone. Even if I love it. I don't know why I work with my brain that way. 

Let's write it here as well because I want to finish as much of this as I can and start nothing new. I think I'll also enjoy writing a blog post about each as well. This is already making me excited (in a way I never am with my phone (even when I'm not doomscrolling)).

LET'S GO WIPS!

In no particular order:

• Sewing: Picnic tote bag
• Embroidery: Tote bag (with stars)
• Knitting: Slashed top
• Finishing: Knit Tomato Soup Tins Tank
• Crochet: Shruggie bolero
• Knitting: 2nd Sock
• Crochet (commission): Zipped Balaclava
• Knitting: Dolls (series + accessories/ wardrobe)
• Knitting: Dragon
• Crochet: Llama head
• Crochet: Ophelia top
• Craft: Star wand fan
• Darning: Clothing

Wish me good luck!