The Lower Bar Remains Unknown (cUTE lOOK)

-

 




i look great today, so i want to be seen

i feel bad that i feel bad because

i look great now


i dont leave the house without looking great

so i look great every day

because i want to leave

my bar for presentable is a high bar, i dont know why, i dont think it was  me that started this

everyday to exist i must reach the high bar


the others may not care

its not for them 

its inside of me


i felt bad this afternoon and i had my shoes on 

shoes on i feel ready

today the shoes couldn't hold onto the wind that knocked out of me


i left the house to buy turmeric 

im so happy to succeed

accidentallly i pulled on a great look

i wouldnt have worn all of this otherwise and  didnt really care what i was dressing for

the stakes were low and they were not high

so i flourish and prosper and bloom 


its my missed opportunity that i will not be seen by my friends 

i feel bad that i feel bad

in a good look for this feeling 

i pull together well 

it could have been immortalised in photos forever and my coolness recorded and honored , but i have missed that for today

and that hurts my heart, i dont miss the camera, i miss her

i want to see my friend but i felt bad earlier and feel bad still and feel bad about that now we wont meet today

i miss her i wish it was different and i wasnt tied down to this sickly body that i look so good in this evening


its just for me today

i deserve more hours outside than i will get, i pulled it all off but 

i know i am weak because i feel bad 

i sucumbed 

to this when all i needed was to look good. thats all i should need to leave this place 

not health and energy, that is for weaklings 

like me. she doesnt say it quite like that but its what i hear now 


i look good but i cant go because i feel bad  i will instead recover like a failiure that needs to that is only human not like her 

she is more,

how will my poor heart mend like this alone, ,

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Behind the Blog: Lucy

-
Image
Starting this project has been on my mind for some time now and I am glad to be finally taking the leap.  Whenever I have a spare moment or a dull minute, my first instinct is to check my phone. And I hate it. I've been fighting it recently. It's harder than I am proud of. I enjoy the immediacy that technology brings, but the joy doesn't last. I expect that taking time away from my mindless use of technology will bring the lasting joy that it doesn't offer. I anticipate a challenge, but I trust that the long term payout will well be worth it.  Our idea is to spend time reconnecting with the world naturally, through poetry and crafts and writing and exercise. Revolutionary, really. I'm excited to start. We want to spend time every day this way. Back to basics. Rewind time. Before phone. Before doomscrolling. I want to lose hours stuck in clay and paint and glue and an idea to create something fun that inspires me, something exciting that's not my phon...
Read more

Welcome to Trading Blue Light for Sunlight

-
Image
Hello and Welcome!  We're so excited you're here for our very first blog post. We've been eager to launch this space and we’re so glad to share it now.  This blog is our little corner on the internet, it's our place to be creative, connect with other makers and crafters and celebrate the joy of natural living. We’re starting this blog because technology has slowly and recently become too consuming. We want to reconnect with the world and ourselves. We will use crafting and writing as a way to unwind, be expressive and turn our attention away from screens for hours and make something meaningful.  This blog will let us be consistent while we enjoy teaching each other, sharing project ideas and inspiring ourselves. When you read along we want you to feel welcome to do the same.  You can look forward to a variety of posts documenting our trials and tribulations with our activities. We’re excited to try new things, including: poetry; collage; sculpture; writing short stor...
Read more

Behind the Blog: Elena

-
Image
                        Hi, it's a pleasure to have you here. I'm Elena, a girl who's finding a way to un-plug . Recently I've come to the conclusion that the attraction to satisfaction must come at a cost. In order for one to chase, one must be challenged. I present to you "75 Hard". A challenge created by the one and only, Andy Frisella, an entrepreneur, podcaster, motivational speaker and life coach. Andy started the project in year 2020, at that time Covid-19 had just sprung and he was developing the, 1st Phorm International. A company that  planned on helping athletes with nutritional supplements and sport performance.      So with all that said we, (my amazing partner Lucy and I) welcome you to our challenge to unplug, 75 Creative. As she calls it., our tiny corner of the internet, where we will begin to post regularly in the span of the next three months. Documenting our creative explorati...
Read more